I am pretty sure many of us can start off our life story as ” I always knew I was different” so I am not going to even go there. I will say, that I have always been connected to nature, like many. I loved to watch the wind blow through the trees, as I could hear them speak. As I would hold stones in my hands, I could feel their energy joining mine to teach me of the stone people. Those who know me, are really not surprised I am on the path that I am one. Even though I got my first tarot deck when I was 17 (25 yrs ago), I still was in a place where learning of the Occult wasnt readily available. A few years later, I bought the book The Celestine Prophesy and realized that others have experienced things such as I so my quest began. I was opened up to my past lives, I began to really listen to my intuition, growing every day. Wicca/Witchcraft was my beginning, and I was told by a Crone that I was hereditary, meaning that my ancestors were Witches as well. But what is a Witch? A healer!! As I progressed on my path I was introduced to many different paths; Hindu, Buddhism, Jehovah Witness, Catholic, Native American Spirituality, and even Judaism. I will say, after studying Judaism, I gained such a great respect for the religion, and saw such sacredness in the practice. In all of my studies, I do walk that path that I am studying it, and that was quiet an experience. One path, that many are on now, is the New Age movement. The thing about new age, is that it is so tangled into everything, that it isnt very grounded.
In this New Age path now-a-days, the focus is of higher consciousness, ascension. It is one of listening to the higher self, meditating and matching your energy to higher consciousness energy, getting rid of the EGO, and detachment. We all know of Monks, Nuns, and other groups of folks that surrender the physical world to devote themselves strictly to the Divine. But for the rest of us, we experience the mundane life while trying to live it spiritually. It teaches one to release and detach from emotions, and only see the Divine in every one. To have unconditional love, and to yield. And trust me, that is all higher chakra energy, and it is a super high and feel good energy. You’re feeling so much ecstatic love energy, you miss a lot of other emotions.
To me, our EGO exists for a reason, as it allows us to stick up for our self and not become a door mat. Over operated, it can be a separation from others, including Divinity. You have probably seen something like this floating around on social media “EGO = Edging God Out. And yes, over operating the EGO can do just that. This three letter word can also help you with self love, teaching you how to show respect for all things. It is a two sided coin, a duality.
In my ascension journey, I had some truly awesome experiences that have helped me in many ways. One of the things was ‘self evaluation’, but this isnt strictly just for this path, it is with many. When one walking the Goddess Path, we are forced, just like Goddess Inanna, to sacrifice those material things that hold us back. We are forced to look into the mirror of the void, and allow it to look within us. The worst demons we will ever face, is those that we create. These challenges are the ones that will make us or break us, forcing us at the feet of the Great Goddess in complete surrender. So that inner work isnt just limited to new age journey. I was riding that wave high, to a point where I found myself literally disconnected to just about everything. I believe in reincarnation, and I feel that we choose to reincarnate for various reasons. The most important reasons is to “Have the Human Experience”. Yes, I believe we come here to experience all there is to experience, taste the different taste, feel emotions….good or bad. To deeply love, and to be deeply heart broken, this is the beauty of Life. We exist is a space that has duality. Why even be here if you can not live it and taste it?
You see we have a swing here, from one extreme to the other. The pendulum swings. But you see, the answer to it is moderation. Feeling the feelings, but having enough control to not let them consume you. We work to gain a balance, a harmonic flow of energy. If you’re here to experience, why are you trying to vibrate yourself to a different realm? Are you escaping something you should be facing? When we are concentrating on those higher energies, it can separate us from our reality, sliding the veil of illusion over your eyes. When this happens, we can limit ourselves to other wonderful experiences that could happen in our lives (some refer to them as challenges). It is good to detached from ill-willed energy, but we must not detach our self to the physical world we live in. We must pull on both energies to create that harmonic energy.
Harmonic balance will be found if you just allow the pendulum to rest.