James Frazer wrote in his work The Golden Bough:
Of the two-feasts, Halloween was perhaps of old the more important, since the Celts would seem to have dated the beginning of the year from it rather than from Beltane. In the Isle of Man, one of the fortresses and which the Celtic language and lore longest held out against the siege of the Saxon Invaders, the 1st of November, old-style, has been regarded as New Year’s Day down to recent times. Thus Manx murmurs used to go around on Hallowe’en (old-style) singing and the Manx language, a sort of Hogmanay song which began “Tonight is New Year’s Night, Hogunnaa!” In ancient Ireland, a new fire used to be kindled every year on Hallowe’en or the Eve of Samhain, and from this sacred flame all the fires and the Ireland were rekindled.
As we get closer to Samhain, I am really feeling the pull of the Otherworld. I like the dark time of the year, I feel there is a lot of healing that happens that we do not allow our self during our light months. Work takes our hands and down a road of mind-numbing sorts. Even with my job, that I love, it seems that many times it wants the front seat in my life. The Witch’s Year is coming to a close with the death of our God on Samhain, and this year alone has been so much change, revelations, and just eye-opener circumstances it really puts me beside myself. The shift has made me change perspectives on many things in my life. One relationship that I saw as healing, and loving was actually pretty abusive…wha?? Yep, control is quite a manipulator indeed and when used in the guise of love, you dont really see it coming. You see it as some one dearly caring about you. Yes, crazy huh?! I have noticed that a lot of people just dont know what the hell they are doing. Many like to set out and begin something they know nothing about, thinking they’ll learn it along the way failing to realize that, at many times, they doing more damage that good. From this, it has made me look at myself. The Ritual of Mirrors we proformed back in August set a whole bunch of things in motion. One drop in the water can cause great ripples, this is good to remember in your every day life as well. I have really learned to check myself first, before setting some one else straight. Healing, ah well this is a subject that has it’s own space in time. Even within myself, I came to notice how many wounded healers there are out there. People trying to help other people when they dont even have their own Self together, I had to include myself as well. You can not go straighten up some one else’s backyard when yours is a wreck! We like to think we are this and that, and in reality we are just trying to evolve ourself. And labels..what the heck? The ones who scream ‘NO LABELS” the loudest are usually the ones using the most of them. I am noticing a group of people that really like the victim role, choose to stay there instead of getting up, pulling up their boot-straps and getting the stuff done. So, yes, taking responsibility for myself was addressed. From my observation, responsibility isnt something every one wants to have, they would rather some one else save them or be to blame…”That ole’ devil is at it again!” What if YOU are the devil? What if you make the demons in your life? Before we begin to point our fingers, we need to look in that mirror first. This year has seen a lot of death, even in my inner circle. An ending of one, and beginning of another…transformation. This year I have laughed, cried, hated, resented, loved, mourned, evolved..I have felt just about every emotion and have taken the lessons from them. I am now a writer in The Witch’s Brew Magazine, for which I am very proud of. I have been having dream about a HPS I used to work with…so more learning is coming. I am excited for the New Year and hope that it flows a lot gentler than this past one, but I feel it will not exactly. Remember that we are in a new Age, we are having to get adjusted.
Getting adjusted seems to be an understatement, but it is what it is. I am still in the sign of water, which is quiet overwhelming for a fire sign…I am either all steamy or going out of steam. Getting control of the emotions is a tricky thing, standing up for yourself while not looking like a dumbass takes practice. I am very thankful to the Goddess and God for the bountiful harvest I have received,and I look forward to the knowledge I will acquire during the dark months. I know this path is mine, for sure, and I am very happy I stopped running from the Goddess and just surrendered. My walk with the tarot still unfolds, and my healing work will never end. My body is a temple, I am a vessel for the Goddess…all is well within my Soul!