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The Moments After

Last weekend was my initiation, and I couldnt have asked for more.  I had a seasoned Shaman and a HPS from two other paths there…wow Crone energy!  And I felt it, I felt that knowledge come pouring into me…almost taking my breath away.  It was in between Lughnasadh and the full moon in Leo, with Neptune going retrograde.  I am totally feeling things shift, with Mercury going in retrograde I am really feeling this going inward energy.  It has been an emotional time, as it feels like the veil is being ripped from my eyes, not just one layer at a time.  I feel raw today.  Changes are not always simple, nor easy.  What’s worse is that people that are not in tune with your path do not understand.  I feel like I am getting my balance on a new plane of energy….and I am.

This is an emotional time, it is one of letting the old parts of me die giving way to the new parts.  I see and feel things changing around me, including my relationships with others.  I am even changing physically as well, and attitude!  I will no longer allow others to bust through the boundaries I set.  I am taking on the role of a Priestess of the Great Mother, and that is one path you dont take lightly.  I see these people reading books, then deciding that they too are already a Priestess.  You may be a Priestess in training, but it take many years to truly become.  I have been on my path now for 17 yrs, more really but I am speaking of actively seeking.  You see it takes a while to release all the nonsense society has had you to believe, the lies that some religions like to tell you.  You have to see beyond, do your research, and learn.  Many would not be walking a path they are walking if they only knew the actual truth behind it….but then again maybe they would because not all are strong enough to break down the facade.

Have I thought about throwing in the towel?  YES, and more than once. But you see, the Goddess will still come to you, she will be in your heart and soul.  When you are called by the Goddess, the pull is so great that turning back is really out of the question.  But you do have to understand, that I have been on a Pagan path for many years. I have experienced other paths, dipped my toes in the waters many times, until it was the time when I could dedicate myself to this.  And it is a dedication, as the Goddess works on you night and day.  I havent done some amazing feat to some, but to me I have.  I have listened to my Soul and the Great Goddess.  I have sacrificed and put her first, and the transformation has been remarkable.  I wouldnt suggest this path for all, getting the year and a day sure……but the path of the Priestess is very tiring and is 24/7.

Many come, but few actually make it!

Blessings,

Sirona Rose

Lughnasadh ~ Bounty and Sacrifice

The Wheel has turned again, and we find our self at Lughnasadh.  This is our first harvest season, the God is struck down.  Our Goddess, still pregnant, strikes the God down so his seed can sow and fertilize the Earth.   In essence, this is considered a fertility festival as well.  Many times, at this time, the Goddess really shows me the sacrifices…those things I put let go in order to go forward.  This year, I feel that it is a mixture of both.  I feel the sacrifice, but since it is my initiation weekend, I feel the bounty.  It is a time to begin looking back on things; what is left undone and what needs that extra push before the final harvest?  The sun is getting weaker and daylight shorter, and we have been blessed with a bit of a cool spell the past few days.  I can feel autumn begin to call.  This whole year seems as if it just flew by.  Not like on a roller coaster, although there have been ups and downs. This is like a raging river aching to reach it’s destination.  This river waits no one, and well it just simply cants.  The flow has been fast and swift, pulling you under at times.  There have been some breathers here and there, but mostly it has been relentless.

As I walked on the cool, damp grass this morning on Lughnasadh I can feel the change.  I know my job is to help that wheel turn.  We are coming out of one cycle, and into another.  I looked up at the sky, with the sun brightly peaking through the trees, and I think about the cosmos…As above, So below. We have some very interesting happenings in our heavens this month (August), if you didnt know. We have Lammas, which is today; followed by Uranus going retrograde on the 3rd, the ritual is on the 5th, the full moon in Aquarius is on the 8th, Mercury goes retrograde on the 12th and this whole time we have alignments going on that they call the finger of God.  See, a lot of energy there. And dont forget, we are at the very beginning of a new age, The Age of Aquarius.  So, as you see, as the cycles are changing here, they are changing above.  Change is a’comin for sure.

I do feel that sacrifice energy, but I am also feeling the energy of nourishment (part of the bounty).  Naturally at this time, we are feeling the dark months coming, so we are rushing around preparing for that time.  Our ancestors would be gathering food, storing it, preserving it, etc. But what are you preparing for?  How are you nourishing your body?  When we talk about nurturing our Self, this means nourishment as well…what are you feeding your body?  Are you keeping it in stress? Are you feeding it junk? Or, are you feeding it live, good, clean foods?  Our bodies heal, respond, and feel the way that we nourish them.  If we are staying stressed out eating fast food all the time, this is not a good thing. We must tend to our temple.  We are seeing a world full of sickness, our diet, our nourishment, to our bodies are very important.  But its not just food.  We are also seeing a world that has forgotten it’s past, that is more worried about physical things.  Instead of learning, we are turning a blind eye which will ensure that we will repeat the same mistakes. We care more about band-aiding a problem rather than fixing it.

So I ask you, how are you nourishing your body?  What will you be harvesting at this time?   Are you tending your fields, your Soul?  Sitting back and watching this year, I will tell you there are a lot of people out there not walking their talk.  I am including, as I am human and I do have to learn from the falls.  Those who preach peace and love, are showing themselves to be full or rage and anger.  What does that say?  You’re being called to the carpet, it’s time to take responsibility for your Self.

Happy Lughnasadh, and may you have a blessed harvest, nourishingly bountiful.

Blessings,

Sirona Rose🌙

The Priestess

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I am just days away from the ritual, and I am feeling the butterflies.  As I swim through this experience, this is not a comfortable experience.  I literally feel out of control as times as I am going through this initiation.  Things are not feeling the same, and I am really looking at my life doing some self inventory.  I would run from this if I didnt think the Goddess would hunt me down…..like she has done several times before. She is relentless to her priestesses.  The call will not go away, and will haunt you during your waking and sleeping time.  So here I sit, stressed out from today and crying like a baby.  I literally feel like a weak one.  It was not a good day at all.  Getting woke up early in the morning, having guests that are unhappy on their tour, then seeing a kitten get hit by traffic…yea it just has been a swirl of craziness.

This degree really gets you in touch with yourself, deeply.  It is a birth..rebirth.  Witches are born from the inside out, their High Priestess is their midwife.  A massive transitioning is happening.  Plus this energy of the Age of Aquarius with all this energy…and solar eclipse coming!!  Wow every thing in Gaia is shifting, transforming…rebirthing its self.  I have been working myself to death, dodging the energy that is surrounding me.  I am just blowing through it will no care…well now it is truly making itself known.  I can not longer hide from those issues/challenges I just close my eyes too.  I am not be observant of what is truly going on around me.  I am refusing to give myself a moment of silence to deal with this…this change.  As I look deep in to my own eyes, I am made to see my Soul and well its not happy about some things.  I work constantly at keeping others happy and it has become my pain.  My writing muse has been dormant, and with drawn.  She used to sit beside me whispering delicious words of intrigue…now she is alone in her corner.  I long to put pen to paper (so to speak) and compose a wonderful story to inform, delight, connect, help, inspire, heal some one out there.  Now there isnt even an echo.  But now, as the emotions rush in, my fingers can not move fast enough. There’s so much to say and not enough words to say them. The bottom of the pond is being dragged.  The long lost things that were hidden under the carpet are making themselves known. I feel like I am being turned up side down and inside out. My priorities are changing and I am seeing how fragile life is…and how short. Being so stressed that I cant think straight, being unprepared for important things because I am going so fast in the work lane.  WOW for what really?  It’s just too much, it’s so much as fast and trying to do this that and the other.  Plus with everything else…like a hurricane.  I have to breathe, I have to live, and I have to BE.

I know that I will walk the path I am supposed to walk and I will be a vessel for the Goddess to be expressed in beneficial ways.  The work is just tough some times.  Uranus will be going retro in August as well as Mercury going into retro on August 12th..and the eclipse on the 21st!  A lot happening in the stars as well.  I am already feeling this Uranus retrograde, I feel the hidden being made known.  I am spinning too fast, I need to slow down a bit and feel this and heal it so it can move on.  As a Priestess of the Goddess there is a lot of responsibility that comes with that and the preparation is not easy…and I have only just begun.  I keep saying I cant see what’s coming, but I bet if I slowed down and took a breath I would see and hear it.  What is real and what is the illusion??  It is now making itself known..with great clarity.

So one more step closer to the date. I know things are okay, but I have to ground.  I am excited by this and I am ready to move on into my role.  Just have to remember to BE..and most importantly to breathe…

Blessings,

Sirona Rose

The Journey and Shaman

I have been studying my Wood tarot.  Those cards have the energy of the ancestors, so they are a bit hard for me to read every day.  These cards are more of the energy of going inward, just more of a self examination type energy.  Now I am stuck on the Shaman.  My first card was the Journey card, that is the Death card in regular tarot, but that one is where I was introduce to “purification through fire”.  So, here I sit with the Shaman.  This is not an easy energy at all, as the Shaman does walk between the world as well as being one with all.  Intent, your gifts…becoming one with them.  Am I using my gifts to the best of my abilities?  What am I doing with my certifications…my intuitive skills…my connection to the Great Goddess and God?  I am feeling a bit of being stuck.  Even with my writing, that I adore, I hardly do it as it is like things go completely blank as soon as I sit down.

Today is the Summer Solstice with the New moon coming up in a couple days..and I havent even paid attention to what is going on in the cosmos or even tapped into Mother’s energy.  Looking into the mirror is hard, as things get real quick.  Am I being blocked?  Well then, I ask myself…when have I meditated?  when have I took time for ME just me not doing work.  The path of the Priestess is not an easy path.  You are the cycles, you are the changes.  You build and then you tear down….only to rebuild again.  The trick is learning how to do this all like its an every day thing.

The Summer Solstice is our longest day, the day the Sun is at his zenith.  After this day, the days will get shorter, preparing us for the God being struck down, to our ultimate harvest festival then to his rebirth.  The Goddess spins her Wheel, we have to learn to dance with it.

Dancing with the Wheel,

Sirona Rose

Summoning the Fate Verdandi

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I am nearing closer to the ritual, and I am feeling the anticipation soaring through my body. I have had my brain full of thoughts, ideas but when I go to write it just disappears. May be some things are meant to be out floating around the net. It has been so busy, I feel like some times I can’t come up for breath.  I am having to draw my boundaries and enforce them.  My job has been quiet challenging, as I am working a lot and not taking some time to myself.  We’ve had to let go 2 people, one has been a complete idjit and a total let down…but this was all foretold to the lady I work with. She asks for our opinion, we tell her what we see, and she just let stuff go on and on.  I do not understand why she keeps investing in people just because of their beautiful words. This frustration has made a lot of resistance develop with in my life, so I am having to step back.  There was a lot of energy placed in this person, on just a word.  At times, it feels as if those intuitive abilities that she wants in her people are not respected by her. She is so ecstatic that she let go of this guy, its like she finally worked up the nerve.  For me, if I am paying your pay check, you work for me and I am not intimidated by you.  I am glad she is learning to honor her own boundaries, and I do believe it is a ripple of the work that I have been doing ( this boundary thing is affecting my friend as well).

The phase of life I am in, is about learning what I want, focusing, and taking the bull by the horns.  I have became a master multi-tasker, and a bit of a workaholic.  I am having to learn to step back and take some ME time.  There is a lot of stuff I am wanting to do, but I am staying worn out (from working all the time and running here, there, and yonder) that I just want to chill for a while.  I do not like not having the ME time that I so need.  Balance.  I am having to learn how to juggle all of my life, having it work simultaneously together. The new moon is approaching, so I am feeling some time inner is needed.  I feel like some thing is holding me back…but what?  Is this just the energy I am in as I prepare for initiation?  I just feel like I am at a turning point. I am so not the person I was in the beginning of this journey.  I have become so guarded with my energy, and who I share it with.  The Maiden Goddess has fully turned int o the Mother Goddess as I see that all things have limits.  Even within myself, my flower-child-side has calmed down. I am not so free with myself.  I do feel some inner anger, and it comes about when some one tries to “figure me out”.  Really??  Is that anger an emotional reaction to fear? Am I just afraid of what is to come?  Laziness??  Past dreams keep coming back to me, and I feel like they are playing out.  I really am feeling this transition.  The new moon will be in Gemini, and She’s all about integrating the dualities of life.  Venus in Mars right now is really putting the focus on self, and what truly serves me for the greatest benefit. North Node in Leo is just bluntly asking me what works for me, what do I truly want in life, what is my authentic expression……What brings me joy, what does it look like to walk my own path, right here and now, what is my Soul’s desire?

I am feeling a great bit more transition, not really clear on what that will be, but I trust that it will be of my own accord.  I actually feel like the whole world is having a huge energetic shift.  I am beginning to see many things that I have been manifesting come into being and I feel really good about that.  I just got to trust in my magic more.  Witches are born from the inside out, so I am being birthed.  All these feelings cant be written, only experienced.

Blessings,

Sirona Rose

Full Pink Moon in Libra

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Sun:  Aries

Moon: Libra 

Mercury:  Taurus R

Venus: Pisces R

Mars:  Taurus

Jupiter: Libra R

Saturn:  Sagittarius R

Uranus:  Aries

Neptune:  Pisces

Pluto:  Capricorn

We are having our full pink moon in Libra, so our relationships will be illuminated.  We have all kinds of relationships, from casual, associates to deeply romantic ones.  As you can see we have several planets going retro, but do not fret my pet, we are going through a birth so let’s use this energy to the best of our abilities.  You may feel pulled in different directions, going with the flow can help here.  

Venus, our planet of love, is going into Pisces still in retrograde (since the beginning of March), so many of you might have felt that energy shift.  When Venus was in Aries, there was a bit of a forceful energy, one of movement, going forward.  We moved from fire, to water.  As she slips into Pisces, we will feel the aggressiveness go into compassion, and receptiveness.  This is a gentle energy, and at this moment is very much needed.  

Along with Venus, we have Chiron and Neptune in Pisces as well.  Venus and Chiron, can produce a very powerful healing energy, this goes into healing old deep wounds.  We have to heal the old archaic ways that do not honor life, and heal the damage that this energy has caused.  

Pluto and Uranus have been square since 2012, and this placement causes a lot pressure.  This placement happened in the mid to late 60s.  Uranus rules Aquarius, and has been in freedom loving Aries for 7 yrs, it is actually helping birth the Aquarian Age.  

Pluto in Capricorn is heavy energy, and is about complete control.  This square pushes against each other.  Capricorn dredges up the past,  while we are coming into a new conscious age.  

Jupiter in Libra retro energy is making us looking at relationships, helping us change by outside influences as well as teaching us how to be in relation to each other.  

I want to really touch on this Venus and Chiron in Pisces and Saturn in Sagittarius dance. As I stated above, deep healing.  Saturn is our father, he teaches us about laws, rules, laws and boundaries; all while Sagittarius is about natural freedom. Pisces is about oneness, while Saturn/Sag teaches us about natural law. As we grow, we are reminded that there are natural limits in our world.  Our morals and limits are tested here.  This placement of these planets are urging us to find the deeper meaning here, look for the bigger picture. We like to follow the advice of all the new age gurus saying live in the now, but we having to consider the future as well…this is where some moderation comes in.  We can not go from one extreme to another, We have to find a balance, there are deeper meanings here and we cant be afraid to see them.  Growth and expansion can happen, but we can’t have the energy shooting out in all kinds of different directions.  Its not easy making hard decisions, because those hard decisions are what defines you.  We are being forced to look at things that are outdated, questions our morality, boundaries, and our consciousness.  Please seek the deeper truth, the bigger picture.

We have to understand that we are birthing our self into the Aquarian Age.  On the Winter Solstice 2012 our planet moved to the other side of the Milky Way…our planet shifted.  Many can try to deny this, but there are certain truths you can’t deny…like the moon effect to the Earth.  Bringing in a new energy is not always easy, as we get fearful when our security blankets are threaten.  But in order to have that wonderful change we are seeking, we must first deal with the old ways that begin exposing themselves.  As we are growing, we have to be reminded there are limits…natural laws.  The deeper truths can only be found in natural law.  We have to understand the value of these boundaries, within our self, relationships, and environment.   Remember, 2017 is a 1 in numerology, new beginnings, as we have been experiencing Uranus in Aries is giving birth to the Aquarian Age, there is a bigger picture here. We have to consciously evolve.  

Blessings   

Solar Return

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I just had my birthday/solar return, and it is falling on a 7 year so this is a bit heavy for me.  I dont mean in a bad way, just one of “it’s time to get off ya booty” type feeling.  I feel the transitions a’comin.  When the Goddess works on you, there are things that happen that you just dont get at the present time, but as you allow the unfolding, makes perfect sense.  When I surrendered to my path, stop fighting and trying to deny who I am and my gifts for that matter I felt the roots dig deep.  I speak of roots a lot, because they are important for us.  That is one reason so many appear to be flopping around like a fish out of water…they do not have roots.  I do not care what any one says, training in any path is a great thing, as it has truly made a difference in my life.  One thing you get is history…..you have to know the history of your path and the people.  Far too many times, I see people post false stuff about things they have no idea about.  Then when presented with facts, they say well I will believe my brothers and sisters…never mind what the truth is.  Training in the beginning and experience are two things that are necessary. You can have all kinds of Phds and be all kinds of book smart, but if you havent had the experience you really dont know how it actually feels and what it truly means to walk that path.  This goes for anything.  Would you want a doctor operating on you that wasnt trained??  Why would you treat your spiritual health the same way?  But thats another story….

So, here I am on this threshold of new beginnings, as well as endings.  I am seriously tired of being held back, especially by people I have to pull along.  It truly amazes at all the ideas I have pop into my mind, only having to figure out how to produce them and actually getting them on paper is a different story.  I love my path, and I want to share it and teach it with all who want to walk it.  It is not for every one, and that is perfectly OK with me. The Goddess calls her own.  With this solar return, I am very much feeling her changing me within.  I feel the need of caring less of what others think of me, and focusing more on me…not in the selfish ways, but on the gifts that I have and can offer to others.  Training to be a Priestess, you put yourself in a teaching role, and I am really trying my best to learn all that I can learn in order to serve the Goddess.

As I march on my path, I am seeing how others have taken sacred words and spread them across the ether as if they are nothing.  There has been a watering down of my path, with so many twisting and turning it to fit them and their needs.  How selfish can one be?  I have witness folks wanting us to change our over 300 yr tradition just to suit them, really??  This type of selfish attitude is slowing taking the traditions (training you will not get out of books) back under ground….and maybe that is what it will take. In order to preserve, we must keep secret.  The problems we run into is that we believe people will take things in consideration the way we do….and then we sadly learn they will not.

Soon I will walk through the threshold of my second degree, where I will accept my role as a teacher of my path. Then, it will be my job to preserve this Goddess path, it will be my role to correct the misinformed. Not that I know all, but a tradition is a tradition. Change is inevitable, yes, but the core remains the same. My tradition, just like many Pagan Celtic traditions, teaches one to look to nature.  I will honor the Great Goddess, the Divine Feminine and I will do my part to bring back the sanctity of the gift of being a woman.  Honoring my God, I will see the powerful role of protector the Divine Masculine emanates.  I will listen to the ancestors speak with me through the wind. I will honor my elders who have gone before me, sharing their knowledge and experience.  Watch her cycles, watch her other creations; how do they respond and interact with each other, what are their cycles, what is their place in this world?  Reconnect with Mother Earth and just watch what she will teach you!  Compare it to the world around you.

Blessings,

Sirona Rose

Time to Ground

 

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We all feel it….the changes coming . We feel the wheel beginning to shift. Todays message is TIME TO GROUND. We are all dealing with this craziness going on, we are feeling this chaotic energy affecting everything. Stresses can get the better of you at times, remember to breathe and ground. It is time for us to sink down within our Mother and allow her to heal us. The spring equinox is right upon us, our physical work will begin, and hopefully those seeds you planted will really make themselves known. But for now, reconnect with Mother Gaia, feel her energy soaring through your veins. Go spend some time in nature…take a moment…listen to the wind… center.
Blessings
Sirona Rose

A Journey of Evolution

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I am pretty sure many of us can start off our life story as ” I always knew I was different” so I am not going to even go there.  I will say, that I have always been connected to nature, like many.  I loved to watch the wind blow through the trees, as I could hear them speak.  As I would hold stones in my hands, I could feel their energy joining mine to teach me of the stone people.  Those who know me, are really not surprised I am on the path that I am one.  Even though I got my first tarot deck when I was 17 (25 yrs ago), I still was in a place where learning of the Occult wasnt readily available.  A few years later, I bought the book The Celestine Prophesy  and realized that others have experienced things such as I so my quest began.  I was opened up to my past lives, I began to really listen to my intuition, growing every day.  Wicca/Witchcraft was my beginning, and I was told by a Crone that I was hereditary, meaning that my ancestors were Witches as well.  But what is a Witch?  A healer!!  As I progressed on my path I was introduced to many different paths; Hindu, Buddhism, Jehovah Witness, Catholic, Native American Spirituality, and even Judaism.  I will say, after studying Judaism, I gained such a great respect for the religion, and saw such sacredness in the practice.  In all of my studies, I do walk that path that I am studying it, and that was quiet an experience.  One path, that many are on now, is the New Age movement.  The thing about new age, is that it is so tangled into everything, that it isnt very grounded.

In this New Age path now-a-days, the focus is of higher consciousness, ascension.  It is one of listening to the higher self, meditating and matching your energy to higher consciousness energy, getting rid of the EGO, and detachment.  We all know of Monks, Nuns, and other groups of folks that surrender the physical world to devote themselves strictly to the Divine.  But for the rest of us, we experience the mundane life while trying to live it spiritually.  It teaches one to release and detach from emotions, and only see the Divine in every one.  To have unconditional love, and to yield.  And trust me, that is all higher chakra energy, and it is a super high and feel good energy.  You’re feeling so much ecstatic love energy, you miss a lot of other emotions.

To me, our EGO exists for a reason, as it allows us to stick up for our self and not become a door mat.  Over operated, it can be a separation from others, including Divinity.  You have probably seen something like this floating around on social media “EGO = Edging God Out. And yes, over operating  the EGO can do just that.  This three letter word can also help you with self love, teaching you how to show respect for all things.  It is a two sided coin, a duality.

In my ascension journey, I had some truly awesome experiences that have helped me in many ways.  One of the things was ‘self evaluation’, but this isnt strictly just for this path, it is with many.  When one walking the Goddess Path, we are forced, just like Goddess Inanna, to sacrifice those material things that hold us back.  We are forced to look into the mirror of the void, and allow it to look within us.  The worst demons we will ever face, is those that we create.  These challenges are the ones that will make us or break us, forcing us at the feet of the Great Goddess in complete surrender.  So that inner work isnt just limited to new age journey.  I was riding that wave high, to a point where I found myself literally disconnected to just about everything. I believe in reincarnation, and I feel that we choose to reincarnate for various reasons.  The most important reasons is to “Have the Human Experience”.  Yes, I believe we come here to experience all there is to experience, taste the different taste, feel emotions….good or bad.  To deeply love, and to be deeply heart broken, this is the beauty of Life.  We exist is a space that has duality.  Why even be here if you can not live it and taste it?

You see we have a swing here, from one extreme to the other.  The pendulum swings.  But you see, the answer to it is moderation.  Feeling the feelings, but having enough control to not let them consume you.  We work to gain a balance, a harmonic flow of energy.  If you’re here to experience, why are you trying to vibrate yourself to a different realm?  Are you escaping something you should be facing?  When we are concentrating on those higher energies, it can separate us from our reality, sliding the veil of illusion over your eyes. When this happens, we can limit ourselves to other wonderful experiences that could happen in our lives (some refer to them as challenges).  It is good to detached from ill-willed energy, but we must not detach our self to the physical world we live in.  We must pull on both energies to create that harmonic energy.

Harmonic balance will be found if you just allow the pendulum to rest.

Blessings,

Sirona Rose

 

 

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