Muses of a Priestess in Training, Keeper of the Flame

The Moments After

Last weekend was my initiation, and I couldnt have asked for more.  I had a seasoned Shaman and a HPS from two other paths there…wow Crone energy!  And I felt it, I felt that knowledge come pouring into me…almost taking my breath away.  It was in between Lughnasadh and the full moon in Leo, with Neptune going retrograde.  I am totally feeling things shift, with Mercury going in retrograde I am really feeling this going inward energy.  It has been an emotional time, as it feels like the veil is being ripped from my eyes, not just one layer at a time.  I feel raw today.  Changes are not always simple, nor easy.  What’s worse is that people that are not in tune with your path do not understand.  I feel like I am getting my balance on a new plane of energy….and I am.

This is an emotional time, it is one of letting the old parts of me die giving way to the new parts.  I see and feel things changing around me, including my relationships with others.  I am even changing physically as well, and attitude!  I will no longer allow others to bust through the boundaries I set.  I am taking on the role of a Priestess of the Great Mother, and that is one path you dont take lightly.  I see these people reading books, then deciding that they too are already a Priestess.  You may be a Priestess in training, but it take many years to truly become.  I have been on my path now for 17 yrs, more really but I am speaking of actively seeking.  You see it takes a while to release all the nonsense society has had you to believe, the lies that some religions like to tell you.  You have to see beyond, do your research, and learn.  Many would not be walking a path they are walking if they only knew the actual truth behind it….but then again maybe they would because not all are strong enough to break down the facade.

Have I thought about throwing in the towel?  YES, and more than once. But you see, the Goddess will still come to you, she will be in your heart and soul.  When you are called by the Goddess, the pull is so great that turning back is really out of the question.  But you do have to understand, that I have been on a Pagan path for many years. I have experienced other paths, dipped my toes in the waters many times, until it was the time when I could dedicate myself to this.  And it is a dedication, as the Goddess works on you night and day.  I havent done some amazing feat to some, but to me I have.  I have listened to my Soul and the Great Goddess.  I have sacrificed and put her first, and the transformation has been remarkable.  I wouldnt suggest this path for all, getting the year and a day sure……but the path of the Priestess is very tiring and is 24/7.

Many come, but few actually make it!


Sirona Rose

Lughnasadh ~ Bounty and Sacrifice

The Wheel has turned again, and we find our self at Lughnasadh.  This is our first harvest season, the God is struck down.  Our Goddess, still pregnant, strikes the God down so his seed can sow and fertilize the Earth.   In essence, this is considered a fertility festival as well.  Many times, at this time, the Goddess really shows me the sacrifices…those things I put let go in order to go forward.  This year, I feel that it is a mixture of both.  I feel the sacrifice, but since it is my initiation weekend, I feel the bounty.  It is a time to begin looking back on things; what is left undone and what needs that extra push before the final harvest?  The sun is getting weaker and daylight shorter, and we have been blessed with a bit of a cool spell the past few days.  I can feel autumn begin to call.  This whole year seems as if it just flew by.  Not like on a roller coaster, although there have been ups and downs. This is like a raging river aching to reach it’s destination.  This river waits no one, and well it just simply cants.  The flow has been fast and swift, pulling you under at times.  There have been some breathers here and there, but mostly it has been relentless.

As I walked on the cool, damp grass this morning on Lughnasadh I can feel the change.  I know my job is to help that wheel turn.  We are coming out of one cycle, and into another.  I looked up at the sky, with the sun brightly peaking through the trees, and I think about the cosmos…As above, So below. We have some very interesting happenings in our heavens this month (August), if you didnt know. We have Lammas, which is today; followed by Uranus going retrograde on the 3rd, the ritual is on the 5th, the full moon in Aquarius is on the 8th, Mercury goes retrograde on the 12th and this whole time we have alignments going on that they call the finger of God.  See, a lot of energy there. And dont forget, we are at the very beginning of a new age, The Age of Aquarius.  So, as you see, as the cycles are changing here, they are changing above.  Change is a’comin for sure.

I do feel that sacrifice energy, but I am also feeling the energy of nourishment (part of the bounty).  Naturally at this time, we are feeling the dark months coming, so we are rushing around preparing for that time.  Our ancestors would be gathering food, storing it, preserving it, etc. But what are you preparing for?  How are you nourishing your body?  When we talk about nurturing our Self, this means nourishment as well…what are you feeding your body?  Are you keeping it in stress? Are you feeding it junk? Or, are you feeding it live, good, clean foods?  Our bodies heal, respond, and feel the way that we nourish them.  If we are staying stressed out eating fast food all the time, this is not a good thing. We must tend to our temple.  We are seeing a world full of sickness, our diet, our nourishment, to our bodies are very important.  But its not just food.  We are also seeing a world that has forgotten it’s past, that is more worried about physical things.  Instead of learning, we are turning a blind eye which will ensure that we will repeat the same mistakes. We care more about band-aiding a problem rather than fixing it.

So I ask you, how are you nourishing your body?  What will you be harvesting at this time?   Are you tending your fields, your Soul?  Sitting back and watching this year, I will tell you there are a lot of people out there not walking their talk.  I am including, as I am human and I do have to learn from the falls.  Those who preach peace and love, are showing themselves to be full or rage and anger.  What does that say?  You’re being called to the carpet, it’s time to take responsibility for your Self.

Happy Lughnasadh, and may you have a blessed harvest, nourishingly bountiful.


Sirona Rose🌙

The Priestess



I am just days away from the ritual, and I am feeling the butterflies.  As I swim through this experience, this is not a comfortable experience.  I literally feel out of control as times as I am going through this initiation.  Things are not feeling the same, and I am really looking at my life doing some self inventory.  I would run from this if I didnt think the Goddess would hunt me down… she has done several times before. She is relentless to her priestesses.  The call will not go away, and will haunt you during your waking and sleeping time.  So here I sit, stressed out from today and crying like a baby.  I literally feel like a weak one.  It was not a good day at all.  Getting woke up early in the morning, having guests that are unhappy on their tour, then seeing a kitten get hit by traffic…yea it just has been a swirl of craziness.

This degree really gets you in touch with yourself, deeply.  It is a birth..rebirth.  Witches are born from the inside out, their High Priestess is their midwife.  A massive transitioning is happening.  Plus this energy of the Age of Aquarius with all this energy…and solar eclipse coming!!  Wow every thing in Gaia is shifting, transforming…rebirthing its self.  I have been working myself to death, dodging the energy that is surrounding me.  I am just blowing through it will no care…well now it is truly making itself known.  I can not longer hide from those issues/challenges I just close my eyes too.  I am not be observant of what is truly going on around me.  I am refusing to give myself a moment of silence to deal with this…this change.  As I look deep in to my own eyes, I am made to see my Soul and well its not happy about some things.  I work constantly at keeping others happy and it has become my pain.  My writing muse has been dormant, and with drawn.  She used to sit beside me whispering delicious words of intrigue…now she is alone in her corner.  I long to put pen to paper (so to speak) and compose a wonderful story to inform, delight, connect, help, inspire, heal some one out there.  Now there isnt even an echo.  But now, as the emotions rush in, my fingers can not move fast enough. There’s so much to say and not enough words to say them. The bottom of the pond is being dragged.  The long lost things that were hidden under the carpet are making themselves known. I feel like I am being turned up side down and inside out. My priorities are changing and I am seeing how fragile life is…and how short. Being so stressed that I cant think straight, being unprepared for important things because I am going so fast in the work lane.  WOW for what really?  It’s just too much, it’s so much as fast and trying to do this that and the other.  Plus with everything else…like a hurricane.  I have to breathe, I have to live, and I have to BE.

I know that I will walk the path I am supposed to walk and I will be a vessel for the Goddess to be expressed in beneficial ways.  The work is just tough some times.  Uranus will be going retro in August as well as Mercury going into retro on August 12th..and the eclipse on the 21st!  A lot happening in the stars as well.  I am already feeling this Uranus retrograde, I feel the hidden being made known.  I am spinning too fast, I need to slow down a bit and feel this and heal it so it can move on.  As a Priestess of the Goddess there is a lot of responsibility that comes with that and the preparation is not easy…and I have only just begun.  I keep saying I cant see what’s coming, but I bet if I slowed down and took a breath I would see and hear it.  What is real and what is the illusion??  It is now making itself known..with great clarity.

So one more step closer to the date. I know things are okay, but I have to ground.  I am excited by this and I am ready to move on into my role.  Just have to remember to BE..and most importantly to breathe…


Sirona Rose

The Mirth of the Goddess

The Mirth of the Goddess

We’ve always heard that the mirth of the Goddess is vast many who walked the path only wish to see the loving, all inclusive Mother, the lover the sexual power is that she is. But even the mother has another side. We like to see the submissive type goddess because she is easier to understand.  She is the one we run to when we’ve had a hard day, the one home we wish to run to when all of the world seems bad. And yes she can be that, but there’s also another side of our Great Goddess that we must acknowledge. Artemis for example is the goddess of the hunt she’s related to Diana which is also the moon goddess goddess of the hunt. To only acknowledge one aspect is a great dishonor to the goddess as we must remember the womb and the tomb are one and the same. The first thing that we are taught when we are taught to heal is that in order to heal we must first know how to kill. Now many will take that to an extreme that one not needs to take things, and that is why this path isn’t for all. The teachings of the Goddess are very, very deep and not for the mere simple mind.

Let’s consider the Faerie Goddess Aine. Aine, daughter of the sea good Manannan, was known throughout Ireland as a healing Goddess offering herbal remedies but that was not all she was capable of.  Aine had many lovers that would be consumed by her passion. She had a stone called the Cathair, all that would sit upon it would lose their minds….after the third time, they would be completely lost.  She, although sexual and healing, had a vengeful side and did not easily forgive.  This is something the King of Munster, Oilill Olum, found out first hand when he raped her. As he raped her, she bit one of his ears off which made him incompetent to serve as king (as she knew).  As this beautiful diety was known for her healing, love, and sexuality; she had another side of her that many others aren’t ready to comprehend.  

When many take to this spiritual path, they only want to see the rainbows and lollipops, failing to see the polarity.  when we do not accept all aspects, we limit and cripple ourselves.  When you choose a path, you take on the energy of that path…in all of its essence.  

To become the Priestess of the Goddess, is not a thinkless thing to do, as much responsibility comes with it….that some can’t emotionally comprehend. Priestess are her vessels.  She will love and protect, as well as challenge. The Goddess knows her children, she will call to them but only few will hear her.  Those that do will be blessed beyond compare….

The Goddess’s Mirth is very vast.  

The Mysterious Wicca

Photo by Emily Belivet

As many of you know, I am a traditionalist, but I wasnt when I began my path. I believe in the ways of my ancestors, and I honor those that have paved the way for me.  My lineage is very old, and predates Gerald Gardner by many, many years.  People do call Gardner the “grandfather of Wicca” and most believe that to be that he invented it.  If so, how did he get initiated into it?  You can not give yourself something you do not have.  No, he just brought the practice to the forefront.  In his time, Witchcraft was still pretty much outlawed, so he had to write the books in more of a fanatical way.  You see, it wasnt until 1951 that the last laws against Witchcraft were appealed in England.  He brought to the public eye a beautiful path, one he greatly loved, to try and teach them of the old ways and that they were not “evil devil worshiping” peoples.  His book “The White Witch” was based on what he was practicing at that time. This day and age, the path has become tainted as many can not even tell you the basics behind this beautiful religion. Many want it classified as a religion because a walker of this path should have the same equal rights as any other religion.   Many will take a path and bend and twist it til it is a mixture of many other paths….thus watering them all down. And this can be a not so healthy thing to do, as mixing isnt always a great thing.  I, and many others, call it a religion as for the acknowledgement of the path.  To me, when the word “Neo” is placed before any of the Pagan paths, I begin to laugh as  well as become sad. I am sadden because I know that parts of the culture is being lost.  Many believe that you do not need training…that again is laughable.  Would you go to a heart surgeon and allow him to operate on you when he has never went to school to train to become a heart surgeon?  Like I have stated many time before, I was eclectic for 15 yrs.  I promise you, the knowledge you gain with working with a seasoned Witch (1 yr and 1 day) is priceless and you will learn so much more than reading a book. Books are great, dont get me wrong, but in books there are things left out and you will not gain the knowledge of having hands on training and direct attention.  I have watched many people self destruct on the path of magic, for magic is a living being and demands respect.  When Raymond Buckland came to America after his initiation, he began to teach this sacred path. Now, we should all know that this one man could not train the masses all by himself. This path takes time, as there are many trials and tribulations one will go through with the turning of the Wheel.  One thing we have to understand as well, is that not all are ready mentally to deal with the responsibility of this path.  Therefore, many became upset that Buckland wouldnt train them, they began to piece together this path with what they thought it was….ever heard of Rosemary’s Baby??  Even Gardner himself stated that the only problem with this religion was “there’s too many chiefs and not enough Indians”.  In the 80’s with Scott Cunningham’s book “Wicca for the Solitary Practitioner”, Wicca began to have more of a new-agey philosophy and thus the watering down began.  Self initiation was at the hands of the inexperienced and then Wicca split into Wicca and Neo-Wicca. In the beginning of my path, I did a self dedication and there is nothing wrong with that.  I will say that when I stood there with my HPS and dedicated myself to the Goddess, the ground shook.  Initiations are a bit different, you can not give to yourself that which you do not obtain.  I am an Elder Wiccan, so I do understand that Nature has blueprints.  The Goddess is all encompassing, but the God will not hesitate to show you the limits.  In nature there are defined laws, and whether we acknowledge them or not, they are playing in our life every day.  Many of us try to become deity it’s Self…and we are far from it.  You can be very enlightened, but you are still in this 3D human form so there for you are subject to its boundaries and faults. We can not come to the Goddess and expect her to bow before us, this is a path of challenge and one that will break down your societal views, peeling layers of the falseness to expose the true diamond you are within. When you expect a path to bend just for you, you miss valuable lessons and training that you will never be privy of as well as it being selfish.  Now-a-days, we have a lot of people running around making noise like little children not knowing where they stand, not rooted deep in their foundation.  My goal is to educate and help bring others back to their core.  Knowing our myths and history is very important…just look at the story of Narcissus as that could help many right now.

Please do not think that I am saying I am above, holier than thou , or this path is above any other.  I am for the preservation of the Wiccan Path (as many may be for their path), and I honor my ancestors that came before me to make it possible for me to even know of such a beautiful path.  This path isnt for the weak.  It isnt unicorns and rainbows.  This path is hard work, it is great responsibility, it is one that will tear you apart, but teaches you how to rebuild stronger and wiser.  This path is a way for us to understand how natural law works.  Witches walk between the worlds and are healers of the physical and spiritual as well as the Earth.  They are made from the inside out, and they are capable of (by learning the laws) of bending the will to create the environment they want.  There are many different definitions for Wicca, and none I have seen on other websites or even wiki-pedia and other definition sites even come close to its true meaning….so here it is:

Wicca is a Feminine Nature based Mystery Religion that requires training with 3 degrees of initiation and is Oath bound.  

We do go by the 3 fold law…which is entirely different from the true definition of Karma. We have to realize our words and understand their true meanings, as this is what messes up a lot of things.  Be conscious of what you say and do, as words and actions carry great energy.  My path is Traditional European Celtic Witchcraft and I will be training after Samhain.  If you would like to take this beautiful journey, you are more than welcome to look me up on FaceBook, SironaRoseOwl. I will be starting a learning circle.  Let’s bring the sacredness back to the Wiccan path.

Many Blessings,

Sirona Rose

© 7/3/2017

Healed Through Music

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He was amazing–as amazing as a young man who has only seen the world through the eyes of a traveled young man could be.  He was handsome, with his long dark hair and dark eyes that looked as if they were going to devour me.  Did I love him? Yes, but not in the “let’s spend forever together” type of love.  No, I knew that we had loved each other in previous life times.  Now, our souls were just connecting again.  And my goodness, they did just that.  He loved me, in the best way that he could; as he said to me “I dont know how to be with you except to worship you”, and I let him do just that. We would talk most of the night, we danced in his living room, he played his guitar and sang lullabies to me to gently soothe my Soul.  His fingers would gently touch my face, he would softly kiss my lips, breathing in my breath as I surrendered to his touch.  I could feel his energy rushing through his body, our hearts began to beat as one.  He led me into his temple, where he proceeded to worship me. Our energies and bodies entwined, ultimately becoming one, broke down the walls around our hearts and healed our weary Souls.  I knew from our very first connection that he would not be able to enjoy the vastness of my ocean for very long.  You see, at these depths, he could not swim, for he has never journeyed depths of this nature.  He was used to sitting with the Goddess, but not having her to completely engulf him in her unbridled passion.  This wasn’t his fault, as he was still growing and healing.  Through our energy that intermingled, we healed parts of our Soul that was lost and broken.  I do not think he saw the bigger picture of our relationship, as we did enjoy each other very much, but in the now.

As I sit here on my porch, watching the sun set, I am reminded of him.  I am reminded of the passion my fellow fire sign and I shared.  I miss his songs, the way the music just bled from his fingers.  Oh how he showed me that healing relationships are one thing, a strong, equal beloved is quiet another.  As he stood before me, towering above me, staring down with those hungry eyes, I knew that I was too much for this handsome dark haired young man.  Seeing his vulnerability completely exposed, I knew he would not be able to endure the unexpected storms and the relentless passion that worshiping his Goddess would demand of him to do.  He could only accept the healing, the sacred bonding that this relationship would provide, so he could move on down his path. He has great things ahead of him, he just first needed his soul washed cleaned… did I.


Sirona Rose

© 6/28/2017

The Journey and Shaman

I have been studying my Wood tarot.  Those cards have the energy of the ancestors, so they are a bit hard for me to read every day.  These cards are more of the energy of going inward, just more of a self examination type energy.  Now I am stuck on the Shaman.  My first card was the Journey card, that is the Death card in regular tarot, but that one is where I was introduce to “purification through fire”.  So, here I sit with the Shaman.  This is not an easy energy at all, as the Shaman does walk between the world as well as being one with all.  Intent, your gifts…becoming one with them.  Am I using my gifts to the best of my abilities?  What am I doing with my certifications…my intuitive skills…my connection to the Great Goddess and God?  I am feeling a bit of being stuck.  Even with my writing, that I adore, I hardly do it as it is like things go completely blank as soon as I sit down.

Today is the Summer Solstice with the New moon coming up in a couple days..and I havent even paid attention to what is going on in the cosmos or even tapped into Mother’s energy.  Looking into the mirror is hard, as things get real quick.  Am I being blocked?  Well then, I ask myself…when have I meditated?  when have I took time for ME just me not doing work.  The path of the Priestess is not an easy path.  You are the cycles, you are the changes.  You build and then you tear down….only to rebuild again.  The trick is learning how to do this all like its an every day thing.

The Summer Solstice is our longest day, the day the Sun is at his zenith.  After this day, the days will get shorter, preparing us for the God being struck down, to our ultimate harvest festival then to his rebirth.  The Goddess spins her Wheel, we have to learn to dance with it.

Dancing with the Wheel,

Sirona Rose

Summoning the Fate Verdandi


I am nearing closer to the ritual, and I am feeling the anticipation soaring through my body. I have had my brain full of thoughts, ideas but when I go to write it just disappears. May be some things are meant to be out floating around the net. It has been so busy, I feel like some times I can’t come up for breath.  I am having to draw my boundaries and enforce them.  My job has been quiet challenging, as I am working a lot and not taking some time to myself.  We’ve had to let go 2 people, one has been a complete idjit and a total let down…but this was all foretold to the lady I work with. She asks for our opinion, we tell her what we see, and she just let stuff go on and on.  I do not understand why she keeps investing in people just because of their beautiful words. This frustration has made a lot of resistance develop with in my life, so I am having to step back.  There was a lot of energy placed in this person, on just a word.  At times, it feels as if those intuitive abilities that she wants in her people are not respected by her. She is so ecstatic that she let go of this guy, its like she finally worked up the nerve.  For me, if I am paying your pay check, you work for me and I am not intimidated by you.  I am glad she is learning to honor her own boundaries, and I do believe it is a ripple of the work that I have been doing ( this boundary thing is affecting my friend as well).

The phase of life I am in, is about learning what I want, focusing, and taking the bull by the horns.  I have became a master multi-tasker, and a bit of a workaholic.  I am having to learn to step back and take some ME time.  There is a lot of stuff I am wanting to do, but I am staying worn out (from working all the time and running here, there, and yonder) that I just want to chill for a while.  I do not like not having the ME time that I so need.  Balance.  I am having to learn how to juggle all of my life, having it work simultaneously together. The new moon is approaching, so I am feeling some time inner is needed.  I feel like some thing is holding me back…but what?  Is this just the energy I am in as I prepare for initiation?  I just feel like I am at a turning point. I am so not the person I was in the beginning of this journey.  I have become so guarded with my energy, and who I share it with.  The Maiden Goddess has fully turned int o the Mother Goddess as I see that all things have limits.  Even within myself, my flower-child-side has calmed down. I am not so free with myself.  I do feel some inner anger, and it comes about when some one tries to “figure me out”.  Really??  Is that anger an emotional reaction to fear? Am I just afraid of what is to come?  Laziness??  Past dreams keep coming back to me, and I feel like they are playing out.  I really am feeling this transition.  The new moon will be in Gemini, and She’s all about integrating the dualities of life.  Venus in Mars right now is really putting the focus on self, and what truly serves me for the greatest benefit. North Node in Leo is just bluntly asking me what works for me, what do I truly want in life, what is my authentic expression……What brings me joy, what does it look like to walk my own path, right here and now, what is my Soul’s desire?

I am feeling a great bit more transition, not really clear on what that will be, but I trust that it will be of my own accord.  I actually feel like the whole world is having a huge energetic shift.  I am beginning to see many things that I have been manifesting come into being and I feel really good about that.  I just got to trust in my magic more.  Witches are born from the inside out, so I am being birthed.  All these feelings cant be written, only experienced.


Sirona Rose

Oracle Message of the Day

Good morning Starshine!


Venus just came out of retro in Pisces, so yes emotions can be high, but can lead to great healing. I’ve been hearing to slow down a minute and allow yourself to listen and see what is going on. Sometimes, we may not have all the answers,  so we must sit back and watch. Pay attention to all that is unfolding, know that there is a bigger picture and you’re only seeing a little part. Be mindful of all that is happening around you,  listen to your intuition. Through listening to your inner voice, we may be introduced to new ideas, new knowledge and maybe even a new awareness. 

The only way you will be able to listen to your inner voice, your intuition, is to be still.  The Goddess/Spirit can not speak to you while you’re running around in the rat race.  Slow down! Be silent……listen. 

Many blessings, 

Sirona Rose

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